I’m Not as Well as I Thought I Was

''One of the most powerful books of the year'' Daily Mail

''Nobody can make the serious funny and the funny serious quite like Ruby.'' - Alastair Campbell

Dear Reader,

Checking into a mental clinic wasn''t exactly on my radar in 2022. Writing about it wasn''t either. But here we are.

I spent a lifetime trying to create a ''front'' to give everyone the illusion that all is well. It wasn''t, and it isn''t. Now I look back and I think, ''what the f*ck was that all about?''

I began the book trying to find meaning by going on various, life-changing journeys, I ended up in a mental clinic; obviously things didn''t work out the way I expected. This is the story of what happened after the mental car crash . . . From then on, the journey had to turn inward. It turns out I wasn''t looking for meaning, I was looking for home.

I''m not a fiction writer. I can''t fake it. I could say I rode into the sunset, but life isn''t like that unless you''re a cowboy. Truth is I''m not as well as I thought I was.

These days, trying to stay sane in a completely chaotic world makes life incredibly difficult. For those readers who are deep in the darkness of mental illness, I hope my book makes you feel less alone.

Take care, love,
Ruby x

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''If you buy only one book this year, make it this one.'' - Joanna Lumley

''A true tour de force. We''re all a little messed up in our own ways, but we should all strive to be as fabulously fearless as Ruby.'' - Fearne Cotton

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Sunday Times Bestseller, May 2023